He Ruined My Fuckin' Birthday !
Wtf man ; After 15 L O O N G years he choose to be a man & come see me ? Or is it jus cus a few years ago I went off on his ass tellin' him he needa MAN UP ! Urgh . The flowers , teddybear & card for me 14th , to me that was all cus I went off . But I still don't fuckin' understand why he choose to come see me on My Birthday .
This is what happen...
15th Birthday ; July 17th ; On my way to my softball game a lil past Concord . & we ( Me , Moms , Brian & Gf Lacy ] stop at the mall real quick cus I needed new pants . Me & my Mom were inside & she gives me the phone & it's my godmother sayin' someone wants to talk to me ? So I was like " Hello ? , Who is this ? " Outta nowhere , a voice says " Its your R E A L Father Ken..." I gave the phone back so quick that I didn't hear the rest of it . I gave my Mom the phone back & was like " I DON'T WANNA TALK TO HIM " & broke down in tears "( My Mom started to cuss him out :)!@#$%<3&!, then called My Brother Brian ( him & Lacy stayed in the car ] & told him what happen & to go cuss he out :)!@#$%<3&!. We left the store w. nothin' cus I jus wanted to leave . Got to the car & Brian & Lacy got out & Brian tried to hug me but I didn't wanna hug . He pulled but I was like " LEAVE ME ALONE & LETS GO TO MY GAME ! " My mom kept askin' me if I wanted to go home & I didn't , I didn't wanna see him & have him mess up My Birthday anymore . They took me to my game , went home & idek what happen cus he left & I heard Brian say he was gonna go find him . They came back to my game tho w. balloons")
Other shit bout him...
H I M . . . Lets see , left me at 11 months old cus he was fuckin' married w. 4 other kids already . After that he had nothin' to do w. me . My Mom said he came to see me once when I was like 6 but I was sleeeeeeeeping & I guess Brian went off on him that day for not bein' a Father Figuere to me . I talked to My Mom bout him & we think he was never a Father Figure to me cus prolly his other kids don't kno me . But that's not a goood excuse . He almost died a couple years ago & his wife tells him when it's My Birthday & he never started doin' anythang till I said somethang . He kno's what I look like cus I sent him like 2 pictures to show him what he's missin' out on . His Loss !
The future w. him...
I am goin' go talk to him bout everythang , how I feel & shit but not be hella mean . Even tho he deserves it . At my wedding , Instead of walkin' down w. My Father it will be w. Brian & NO FatherDaugtherDance . I havn't celebrated FathersDay in my whole life & I'm not gonna start . My kids will only have a grandma on my side , they won't kno bout My Father till I think their old enough to kno . ( I hope their father isn't gonna be like mine , couldn't go thru that w. my kids ]
**Everythang else that happen on My Birthday will be in the next blog w. pictures")
